Girl Becomes Woman = Most Beautiful Thing

First let me say, I’m not an expert on this. Next, this is not about sex; it is about other things more elusive. Finally, I have only seen this, and been aware of it, perhaps six times in my life. Only two of those were direct experiences.

Let me start out by trying to describe the ineffable .. There is a marked increase in self-confidence. There is an elegance which must be associated with this transformation. There is an instantaneous dual reaction from men around her: either one of protectiveness for the girl remaining in her – or – one of desire for the woman becoming in her (or both).

I will start out with my three students and go from there .. Recently, I had the honor of teaching science at a popular high school in northern Thailand. I also proctored and administered exams. During that process, I became aware of three particular girls who had something incredibly special about them. This was not beauty in the usual sense. If anyone not sufficiently perceptive would glance at them, they would appear commonplace. But my perceptive skills were trained; I recognized these girls immediately. However, I was not aware at the time what made them special (until today).

I simply thought: these girls are Special. And pretty much left it at that. By circumstance and ‘blind luck’, I developed a casual friendship with the oldest but fear not – I was not the man/boy to steal her innocence. Remember, this essay is not about sex. I’m guessing someone did, but in complete honesty – I don’t care. I remember her as she was – becoming a woman. Not the young woman she became.

I must have met her as she was transforming .. Sometimes this window can be long in duration. Sometimes, as in her case, it can be short. I cannot recall if it was several weeks or months – I was very busy at the time with my duties. But after her passing into her senior year, something was completely different. The magic was gone .. Now let me emphasize that I think meeting someone for the first time can make it seem like there is magic – just from the fact it is your first meeting. But this is qualitatively different from a girl becoming a woman. It’s not the same thing. I feel I have learned to tell the difference.

Anyways .. The two other cases were years ago and involved a girlfriend and my wife. The girlfriend showed all the signs and her transformation was fairly quick. To be brutally honest, she was not that interested in me. She admitted she had been using me to gain confidence and experience to acquire a target (man) she was in love with at her school. Evidently, he was involved with another woman and she apparently wanted the experience, skills, and confidence associated with womanhood to be able to get him. After she broke up with me, she related many stories of her escapades (sexual and otherwise). I’m not sure of all the reasons she felt compelled to relate those stories; in actuality, I couldn’t care less (I was only concerned how and why she could dump me so easily) .. The other story relates to my wife and she was extremely gradual in her transformation. I met her in her early twenties and she was still basically a girl (even though she had some ‘extensive’ sexual experiences). I can safely say that only after she became a mother did she actually transform into a woman .. Perhaps it was because of some betrayal issues from her past that kept her in the ‘girl state’ .. I cannot know for sure. It almost doesn’t matter to me anymore.

The final example happened today at the mall. As usual, I had no idea what was happening until hours later.

Everybody was smiling at me .. I felt like such an idiot .. I had no idea why people were smiling at me .. Okay, let me back up.

I saw this girl (or perhaps another girl transforming). She was slim, tall, and beautiful. She wore glasses. She had this indescribable smile and effervescence. I believe she was aware of me watching her. She had two friends. They also seemed aware I was watching her. Perhaps everyone around me was aware .. I cannot know – I was only aware of her and her effect on me. Some vibration was coursing through my body that perhaps had only happened once before in my life. She was dancing around playfully .. I was aware of nothing else but her.

After she and her friends departed and the light went out of the room, I returned to my senses and ordered lunch. I ate my lunch in peace and went to look for them – just out of curiosity. Before I left, images of the woman in front of me – giving away tasty bits of food – smiling like crazy at me and the girl – and – the man who sold her some smoothie and later offered me a taste – with that same insane smile – filtered through my awareness .. I never found them. It was no big deal. I didn’t understand what had happened until after I took a nap and thought about it. I laughed at myself after discovering the truth. They were laughing and smiling because a girl became a woman before our very eyes. How could I know? I am new to this area and the young woman was exactly that to me. To everyone else, she was a maturing girl – one they had undoubtedly watched grow up.

I was simply at the right place and time to be there for her. Will she remember me? Will she know what happened? All I can do is thank God for this chance to live and love and be aware of Her beauty as she reveals Herself. All I can do is thank God.. And continually pray: please God, protect the innocent.

ps - a man wrote to me and told me this is not newsworthy and a bit creepy. a woman commended me on my view. who do you believe? you know, i was simply trying to give some 'news' about our world that wasn't about murder, rape, or destruction. i think the article fits our times well considering all the negativity. in a way, i was trying to give evidence we are worthy to survive. if you want me to delete this story, plz keep your opinion to yourself; deleting it only deletes reasons for us to continue .. if you have time, watch the new movie Knowing - you may understand what i'm driving at..