46.365 ~ Dreams

1.15.09 ~ It's like I got to the airport leaving Boston and a fucking gray cloud settled directly over my head. I don't know what it is. But I remembered yesterday that with this go - around of 365 I wasn't going to type anything to explain things...just try to sum it up with a title, just because I say too much too often. Umm.... So I'll go back to that after this one, I guess...because here the babble's begun again. Apologies.

SO. Dreams - the first few nights I got back it was kind of funny because I was dreaming in Boston news stories. Every dream played like I was seeing it on the news - one was that a boy in Brockton hadn't gotten off the school bus and spent the night there while his parents were clueless as to his whereabouts...another was a house burning to the ground in Somerville, and another was a woman winning Powerball in Newton. There was a big wreck in the rain somewhere, too, but I can't remember the city. The only thing that I can think to cause dreams like this would be that any time I went somewhere while I was in Boston, I'd try to look at where it was on a map, because I'm trying to learn the state. I don't know...Those were funny. And then I had a dream last night that my neighbor (a policeman, very nice guy) took a chainsaw to my couch and my two living room chairs. And - unrelated to the neighbor - something about me having a baby, but......that's all I remember. I don't know. OTHERWISE - not sleeping until 2 or 3am again. And headaches every day again. Awful.

But I've been slow in posting since I got back just because I've been low again and I don't really know why, but I know people will ask why...There's no reason I can point to. I'm sorry.

Ughh.....why do I talk?