Chelsea never stop loving me; Round Table mechanics; Dark energy

I'm barely able to type right now. Please forgive any passages incomprehensible. A girl loves me and it feels like somebody put a quasar inside my chest. Two days ago I saw a girl at the pool with her boyfriend. She was playing with him in such a way .. I tried to look away because she was so beautiful in her smiles and playfulness – I did not want to make her boyfriend jealous by staring at her.. But those efforts failed miserably.. Thank God he didn't become overtly jealous/annoyed; perhaps he was simply too happy with her unbelievably beautiful smiles.. That day, we never made eye contact. So that day, I never knew if any fraction of her smiles were for me.. Yesterday, I returned to the pool hoping to see her again.. From a distance, she saw me approaching and flashed THOSE eyes. [he] It was like looking into blue spotlights. The smile in her eyes told me she was happy to see me come back. Perhaps she understood I came back to see her. I tried to tell her in my awkward way how wonderful it was to see people laughing and smiling and playing with such recklessness.. We don't do it enough.. Some of her friends came by and they talked, laughed, and took pictures.. It was subdued compared to the day before.. I didn't want to stare at her too much making her feel uncomfortable so I kept averting my eyes (oh Lord – a Monty Python joke :P ) Some personal trauma was keeping me from saying anything or getting involved in the conversation tho I did try to contribute a little.. I got tired and swam a little then sat down in the hot tub and put my head down on the concrete tiles.. They left soon and I waved “bye” to one of the boys.. Eventually, I got back up and sat back down on one of the lawn chairs.. I didn't know what to do but try to relax, forget my trauma, and watch the birds circling above.. Looking toward this house, I saw the group and THOSE eyes again.. I quickly averted my eyes.. Waited until they were clear/gone.. and came home .. I didn't think much about her nor her smile (or THOSE eyes :P ) until this morning after spending three hours on the last article. I went back to bed trying to rest because it took considerable concentration/work. That failed. But during the last three hours attempting to rest, something 'odd' happened.. I gradually became aware of a 'woman out there' loving me.. Somebody loves me .. After contemplation, introspection, reviewing past experiences, some key ladies attitudes and behavior toward me, I pretty much have it narrowed down to you Chelsea.. I know.. You don't 'get it'.. You think I think it's all about sex but you couldn't be more wrong.. You know you're 'hot' but.. If I were God sculpting your body, I'd a designed things a bit differently :P So I can guarantee you it's not about sex.. It's about THOSE eyes I can't bear to look at.. They see right through me.. Or better: they see the Real Me. If there was ever Goddess come to Earth, She's in your Eyes Chelsea .. Never stop loving me.. (As an end-note, I don't expect anything to ever develop between me and Chelsea.. Just by age-difference considerations, that's unrealistic. My friend gug is now bitching me out over Skype about this.. [he] Get over it people. A look is just a look. A smile is just a smile. But to witness Chelsea's smile gave me hope in life. Can that be wrong?)

Round Table mechanics

Now that the quasar is manageable, I can talk about the mechanics of Round Table discussions. In order to help us discover those mechanics, I want to provide you with a hypothetical discussion initiated by the Catholic representative:

CR: “I propose we make human life sacred. This boils down to no abortions. We need to include a statement to that effect in Basic Sentient Rights.”

NA (neutral arbiter): “I have something to say but want the atheist representative to respond first.”

AR: [looks at CR] “Your insistence that human life is sacred borders on idolatry don't you realize?”

CR: “How do you mean?”

AR: [raises their eyebrows in disbelief] “By never allowing a woman to get an abortion, by insisting on the sacred aspect of human life, you essentially are elevating human beings, specifically their human bodies, to the level of your God. That's idolatry.”

NA: “I was hoping for that response atheist rep. I have no further comments at this moment.”

CR: [looks around the table imploringly] “Is this the feeling of the rest of the Table?”

[produces a disgusted look] “This is unbelievable. How can we arrive at consensus when I refuse absolutely to agree on any collective statements that neglect forbidding abortion? Recognizing the sanctity of human life?” [scoffs.. huffs] “I'm going to need a restroom break.” [leaves room]

NA: [rolls eyes and wobbles head in disbelief] “I can and both cannot believe that person.” .. “They're behaving like a child.” .. “Any other comments?”

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So you can see we need to avoid any one representative dominating the table with childish behavior no matter how compelling their 'humanity' may be.. I treasure life, specifically human life, just as much as the next person but I also firmly believe in women's rights and a woman's right to choose abortion. No matter a baby inside her is a human being; it's still part of her body as long as it's inside her. This fact is undeniable .. Further, Christians always talk about 'saving your immortal soul' and focusing on their versions of spiritual life.. Knowing for a fact a baby has something divine in them but yet ignoring how temporary and superficial our material lives are is unequivocally duplicitous/double-speak. Let me say that again because Christians don't realize what .. shall I use the word? BULLSHIT they spew when they start fighting abortion based on 'spiritual grounds'. I firmly agree this life is like a shadow on a cave wall. We can't see the real substance/meaning with our eyes. We're fortunate when we can use our heart to guide us through the maze of deception. So our life is temporary, superficial, and mundane (on the surface). If we use our heart to 'see', we can find meaning and love. Our bodies are like shells for the spirit. Temporary shells. So if a baby's body gets killed by abortion, a woman's choice about her own body, it's unfortunate but not a crime nor sin against God. Please Christians wake up. When a Catholic tries to make laws against abortion, it's equivalent to Muslims forcing Sharia on the rest.

So please don't create the Round Table to fail.. Don't let one representative dominate the Table. Try to assemble a list of Sentient Rights that's concise and fully designed by consensus. The rest should be 'cake' if you can do at least that. :) One 'final' note about the RT: we should not even think about region-specific 'human rights' because that's against the purpose and function of the RT. Basic Sentient Rights applies to all recognized sentient creatures on the planet regardless of location. Creating a region-specific 'basic human rights' is an exercise in futility.

Dark energy; stars are antiphoton generators

I don't know what dark matter is and at this point, I'm merely curious. But dark energy: I can make a guess about. :) Physicists say the expansion rate of our universe is increasing (remarkably). A number of causes have been put forward but the most current widely accepted one is dark energy. In the quantum realism framework, because of balanced curvature, every time a photon is created, so is an antiphoton. This is an elegant solution to the conundrum. :) Think about this.. When the universe was created, there were no stars.. There was a fixed amount of antiphotons which have very slight negative curvature.. Negative curvature has a repulsive effect.. A star, in the quantum realism framework, is a vast producer of antiphotons.. ^^ So.. Over time, our universe should be expanding at an increasing rate as more antiphotons are produced by all stars. Again, it's an elegant solution to the dark energy conundrum. :)