The Discipline of the Holy Spirit
For those who don't believe in a spiritual side of life, please choose another article to read. This article is most easily phrased in that context .. Life is pregnant with opportunities: to acquaint, to engage, to befriend, to collaborate, to produce collaboratively.. At any level, we choose to perform those engagements. We choose our destiny .. Doors open; doors close: divorce, job loss, school dismissal, loss of child custody, death in the family, criminal record.. All of those can be thought of as 'closed doors' or lost opportunities.. What I need to tell you is that beyond a doubt: when a door closes to you, it's for a reason. And that reason is: to motivate you to find the open doors in your life .. Approach life and people in a humble yet fearless way, miracles can happen. For 42 years I've done this; my life has been a sequence of miracles.. Humble because it requires/implies trust and respect. Fearless because if we live in fear, all of our endeavors will be tainted by it.
Be fearlessly humble.
..Sometimes I feel so lost.. So lost.. When I think about how disconnected we are.. Everyone with their own agenda.. Everyone with their material plans .. I myself feel disconnected from my own life at times.. Like I wonder where it's going.. Like I wonder if there's any point at all .. Sometimes I see a beautiful woman smile at me and I'm tempted to turn around – to see who she's looking at – it can't be me, right? ..Today that happened and I had to simply soak in the moment – treasure it for what it was. Perhaps she was happy to be off work.. Perhaps she's smiling at a new stranger in her life.. Whatever her motivations, I was happy it was me..
Every moment is a golden opportunity.
We don't have to think: “Maybe she's single. Maybe she wants a boyfriend. Maybe she's 'hot to trot'.. Maybe she's simply happy to be off work!” Enjoy the moment for what it is! A casual smile between strangers that simply validates our existence!
Her message? I'm worthy of her smile. Wow.. That's actually profound. It means nothing yet it means everything! We are nothing yet we are God.
In one sense, we cannot be too attached to this realm, the physical realm, because it's transient. In another sense, we must dive so deeply into it, we become enthralled. There is a dynamic balance between our spiritual lives and our physical lives .. I must convey some things that may seem 'kooky' or off balance.. Please forgive my thoughts if they seem incoherent.. We begin.. This time is an unsettled time.. We're all searching for meaning in our lives.. Some of us do this in our religion, some in our intimate relationships, some in our study, some in our work, some via crime, some via thrill,.. We all try to find some uniqueness which we believe will make us 'special' but.. It's an illusion. The charm / travesty is: we're already Unique. We don't need to 'waste our time' proving we are.
In a very real sense, I'm defined by the smiles I receive (given from their hearts). They smile at me, they let me know I'm worthy of their smile, they validate my existence, and they give me love. What more do I need? This is sufficient to sustain me.
..But I have other things: other objectives.. I need to raise awareness, I need to make serious attempts on some serious wide-scope projects, and I need to provide some evidence to humanity that 'I know what I'm doing' – otherwise, you won't believe me .. The 'only' evidence I can provide is a new theorem in set theory, a process I call axiomatization, a deterministic quantum mechanics, and 'the human condition' axiomatized. If you dismiss all that as BS, I have no hope to convince you..
We are Perfect in our Uniqueness.
That does not mean we are a 'finished product' – we are always in the process of becoming. Ideally, we are always in the process of becoming a better version of ourselves .. In fact, it becomes inevitable .. I'm so in love with life, with the Prime Goddess, with certain women, with those indescribably beautiful smiles.. With my projects! At the same time: I'm ready to move on – to the Indigo Planet perhaps.. Whatever life / the Prime Goddess offers, I accept in grace.
We should all be ready to 'move on' if required.. Be ready for when our ticket is up.. Be ready for that loss of a cherished one.. And most importantly – cherish our loved ones before that happens..
For it is the doom of humankind that we forget what is most important in our lives: love.