God as Woman; co-ops: the only sustainable model; good parenting

God as Woman; co-ops: the only sustainable model; balanced child-rearing

Who are generally more nurturing, accepting, forgiving, open, welcoming,.. men or women? One way of looking at the cosmos is as a giant womb. Who has wombs? Men or women? Who are generally more mentally private? Would a man allow you to reside in his mind? Only a Woman would do that. So i believe and see God as Woman not just because she resides in me (and so have intimate knowledge of Her), as a man, it's easier for me to relate to Her. It's just natural for me .. It's not that i'm so much a 'woman's libber' as God libber .. That's quite funny but true: God has only one right - Her right to be recognized.

As a very brief aside, a long time ago, i had a vision of me crawling up the steps of some Washington monument (perhaps the Lincoln memorial) and expiring on the steps at age 50. i think my last words were something about freedom. "All in Freedom and Love" maybe.. Not sure.. Difficult for me to recall.. Anyways, sometimes my heart fibrillates and also my blood pressure can get quite high at times (not consistently high - just chaotically extreme). It doesn't concern me cuz when it's time for me to go, i will be ready for Her .. What i wanted to write about here is that i've made a 'last will' for any who care.. You can find it here.

What i really wanted to write about this time, other than God, is about cooperatives. i was exposed to them as a child in Petoskey, MI. And i've seen them in action here in Thailand. Co-ops are a kind of hybrid between communism and capitalism. Farmers grow things locally and bring them to market. There are some intermediaries (middle-'men'), but the model is: producer direct to consumer. That way, there's no surcharge for any intermediary process (distribution, packaging, etc) because it's all done by the producer and consumer together. New Zealand, my 'dream country' (where i want to live when i grow up;), has many co-ops. i tried to make one there years ago.. At that time, my dream was to create an eco-friendly co-op providing things such as: composting toilets, electric generator-windmills, eco-design assistance (for instance, grey water handling), etc. But at that time, i could generate no interest. :( Btw, if you're going to (re)visit Kiwi-land, please consider staying at my friend's Bed-and-Breakfast: Yaping House in Auckland. Their website is here .. An old friend in California was also very into systems integration and holistic living and inspired some eco-designs i mention in Humanity Thrive! Considering Better Way etc, that booklet's outdated but .. still has some valuable perspectives. He specifically inspired a cross-cultivating greenhouse. You select certain mutually reinforcing plants so that you get an amplifying effect. It's more than symbiosis; it's more emergent. (Certain plants (or the fixers associated with them) are better nitrogen 'handlers' than others, for example, so we can intermix those with others less capable but producing more desirable crops. Those plants also produce something the fixers need. So it's a self-amplifying system.) This is the 'poor man's way' of doing 'genetic engineering' of crops. (Does not require any fancy genetic engineering equipment - only clever crop design.) So we have a long way to go in promoting agricultural awareness and sustainable paradigms .. If God allows me to continue on this 'accursed planet' ;), where everything i do is misunderstood, misinterpreted, mistaken for something else negative,.., i'd like to 'retire' in NZ making that co-op mentioned above or perhaps teaching hanggliding (if i'm physically able to do it) .. i'm only 48 so who knows when it's my true time to go. ;) [sigh] One of the reasons i had to leave America was that Yui's constant needling etc was driving my blood-pressure too high.. She was basically killing me with her 'dog mouth' .. i know i know, i must let things like that roll off but .. Not easy when Queen Harpy is in your face .. i'm sure she's wonderful to her customers and other men, but she's chosen me as her whipping boy and i really needed to get away from that. Sorry to be so personal in this essay but if i'm going to tell you about my will, my blood pressure,.., i must tell you about what drives it up. She doesn't believe me but smoking natural Burmese cigs helps relax me.. It helps clear my mind. i know it's probably making my lungs look like the inside of a coal mine but.. Sometimes you have to balance winning and losing .. The cigs really helped me think clearly about physics recently .. If God graces me with another lady/girl/woman, one who can believe in me as her man, then i'm sure i can give them up for her. For sure. [sigh] Well, that's enough for now .. i think you 'catch my drift' about things.. To summarize: God Deserves to Be Recognized and co-ops need firm establishment in world economy. We need to be clever about how we grow crops. And one final note: it's true, all prayers are answered .. Not that you always get what you want, but all prayers are answered. (So the motto here is: be very careful in your prayer-wording!)

.. If God decides my time is soon, no biggie.. Arthur is a miracle to me.. Just to know him is an honor.. To be his father is much much more.. i hope that more and more of you can see that i write not out of ego; for instance, if Oprah ever invited me 'on show', i might have to decline just on principle (even though i would love to meet her). It's not about privacy - i have Nothing to hide .. It's about true humility and grace and the message speaking for Itself.. Remember, i'm just the messenger .. It's the Message that matters. ;) .. If you take the time to examine my will, you find not one thing for me (except perhaps The Avatar request - but that's more about artistic fidelity than anything else); every one of my requests is for others. So if any of you can read these words with your heart, i truly am trying to live a self-less life.. Of course, many might see requests for family assistance as familial-selfishness, but .. My faith in Arthur, my vision for humanity's future, how they might be related,.. Is there a view of the future with less meaning? Is this not the most meaningful future envisionable (from my perspective)? So from that perspective, we should all raise our children to be future benevolent-kings. Maybe Camelot truly can re-emerge.. If we truly believe in our hearts, if we each of us, raise our kids to be King Arthur, Camelot can return.. Camelot can come again..

.. There's the philosophy of 'letting the inner character emerge' in child-rearing (we must accept how different all children are and how they seem to be 'programmed from birth' to have a certain character), but balanced with that acceptance is responsible parenting: we have an obligation to make trust and respect part of their character. It's the only thing that will save human civilization. This paragraph is a kind of synthesis of Better Way values and Humanity Thrive! message: we must create the most meaningful future: mutual respect, respect for creation,.. in so doing, we Respect and Honor Ourselves. We union with God by respecting others and creation. Trust is the 'other side of the coin': without trust, we cannot have respect and vice versa. With true respect there is always implicit trust. With trust, respect is always there. In many ways, Trust and Respect are the two faces of God .. My writings are Never to enslave or coerce or subjugate; to say that is equivalent to saying "raping a child is a good thing". God is about personal empowerment. It's not about Hollywood or fantastical magic or being 'chosen' for wizardry; Merlin is Within. His Magic is Love .. If you have children, you have an amazing chance to express this Love and Awareness. Tell them from your heart how much you love them. Every day. Tell them every day how much you believe in them. From your heart. i've said it before and i say it again: to say "i believe in you" (from your heart) is the most powerful thing a person can say - more than "i love you" .. i've seen this power from experience .. Even the way you look at someone: with hope, love, compassion, forgiveness, acceptance,.., is empowering. Project your love through your eyes. Believe me, it can be done .. When we see the world (not just our children) with love and acceptance, we truly have become One with God .. Please allow me one more remark about child-raising .. Then i'll shut up .. Please be consistent. There's nothing more damaging (and makes a kid crazy/unbalanced) than inconsistency. If you're going to raise your kid to be an assassin (a professional hit-'man'), do it right - be consistent. It may sound crazy but do it with love. Whatever you do; be consistent. If you're going to waste your life on murder and mayhem, be consistent. Don't wake up one morning and say "I no longer feel like being a murderer; it's wrong." Make that decision beforehand. Before you get married, look within and ask yourself this question "Can I raise a child with this person?" because to me, there's only two valid reasons to get married (other than helping your friend with immigration - and that's a very poor reason to get married): true love and children. If you truly love someone, you should get married (why not?); if you truly want to have kids with someone, get married .. In some ways i despise the institution of marriage (i've divorced four times!), but i believe in it for the stability of child-rearing .. Stability and consistency. Balance and consistency. Consistency; consistency; consistency. Be integral in everything you do .. There's nothing more repulsive to me than a flaky merriweather (blowing with the wind) .. Everyone needs freedom; that's implicit. But there's a difference between flakiness and freedom. Flakiness implies a lack of internal motivation; freedom does not. So please be consistent in everything you do - most especially in raising your children .. This did not end very uplifting so i must continue a small bit further.. Try to remember, God is in your child's eyes. God is in your child's heart. They may be having a tantrum or acting out some unpreferred behavior .. Be patient. It will pass. Balance will return. Holism will return. Oneness will return. And You will be There to greet It. ;)

with Love, sam