the War for Meaning
'Nobody' (except people who know me personally) believes i'm fighting a war with Satan: a war for meaning in my own life and for humanity. He's a crafty 'little bugger'. He fights me on all levels and all domains:
Science: essentially, Satan has manipulated science through money to focus on things that 'pull us away from God' such as the Standard Model and any research supporting it.
Politics: keeping us nationalistic and divided is his trick, every war, every conflict, every situation of mutual doubt and mistrust – he inspires and wins.
Personal relationships: ego and greed are his tricks here.. If he can get one of you to worship money or focus on material possessions above all else, he's won. Or, if he can get one of you so arrogant you don't respect the other, he's won.
'Church politics': keep fellowships divided essentially disenfranchising them; he wins again.
Play: such as competitive sports: we focus so much on winning (and the bets associated with that), we lose sight of enjoying the game.. Winning/dominating becomes most important. It's no longer fun; the prestige of winning and glory (don't forget all the bets associated) win; meaning loses.
Recreation: increasingly, people are being drawn to increasingly legalized gambling activities: dog/horse races, casinos, and all the superficial glamor associated with those. There are dance clubs within casinos so youth are continually drawn by this titillating activity.
Communication: now most people use email and social networks to interact and communicate. Emotionally, it's isolating. The internet is wonderful for reaching out across the world but.. Social networks have a Draconian bent (see below).
Work: personal evidence below.
In every sphere, in every domain, on all levels of society, Satan wins. Why do i fight him? What's my personal evidence?
If anyone's read any of my science articles, they realize i propose an alternative framework loosely called the Other Model or quantum realism. For thirty years i've been working on it and attempting to contact physicists about various ideas within. Neglect and indifference is the vast majority of reactions.. i'm guessing most of the reason they neglect me is because i appear 'crackpot/fringe' to them.. Also, the ideas come into direct conflict with modern research activities (such as the LHC) and proclaim them 'waste of time/resources'.. This threatens their income. It also threatens their prestige and authority. So there's no reason in 'heaven or hell' they should look at the ideas.. Satan wins from ego and insecurity.
Anyone reading my political articles knows i propose a Round Table which we could all perform in schools and between friends 'just to see' what happens. We could all try to decide what Basic Sentient Rights are, how to share resources, and use them sustainably. 2012 could be the year we change things permanently and for the better. Satan tries to draw attention away from this with 'other things': war, conflict, nationalism,.. The tricks are endless in this domain running the gamut from 'human interest' to 'threats from Iran'.. Satan wins by cleverly manipulating media and our attention.
My ex was atheist and materialistic when i met her. i recognized very quickly i needed to respect her views but at the same time – not neglect my own. She was 'primed' to worship the 'almighty dollar'. The only thing i could do was give her love and emotional support: “I'm leaving you Sam; I don't love you anymore.” “i believe in you Yui.” What else could i say? Satan won.. 'Incidentally', Satan was very crafty in this domain. i managed to pull her away from prostitution in Thailand but .. He managed to trick her into becoming a poker dealer here in America. See how he 'plays'? Dirty pool.
i've attended various churches since i was little: mostly Catholic and Mennonite. Many of my friends and associates are atheist. i myself was atheist in various periods of my life by choice. The times i attended church/fellowship, i became aware of Satan's insidious influences on church life. Egos seem to always get in the way.. People cannot seem to treat each other equally even here. There's always vanity and arrogance to contend with. Even pride of humility can be found. Also, the arrogance associated with ideology: “my holy book says so – so I'm right!” can never be escaped.. Since realizing this, i've permanently left any organized religion and attempted to 'create my own' in Better Way.. Of course, Satan won't allow Better Way to get any visibility or serious consideration because that might 'pull us together' despite his tricks. Our natural desires for fellowship and community are turned against us; Satan wins again.
Many people love college football because it's not about money and winning. Not being a sports fan, i still enjoyed the thrill of screaming support for my team at Michigan State. There's very little to compare to that group (positive) insanity .. But.. Satan twists and perverts college football later on in the pro-arena. He takes something beautiful/wonderful and corrupts it again with: money and the natural desire to win. Play becomes something else: domination and about money. Satan wins through our natural desires and greed.
Casinos and legalized gambling are gaining more and more place in our lives: for recreation, for fun, the chance to socialize, the chance to meet new people, and for the exciting chance of winning! But.. There's no 'get rich quick' scheme that does not have its risks. There's no 'quick fix' involving gambling that does not have risk. (Remember, i was a stats major.) i would be a perfect employee for casino security: watching for players attempting to 'scam' the casino. i've applied to several casinos. There's two reasons why i can't get work. One is because i typically lack experience. i've never worked in casino security. The other reason is given below .. Gambling can be fun and i'm not against it used for recreation or say: as part of a university that teaches math and stats. So i'm not completely against gambling.. But i'm against gambling as a way of life. Satan would prefer we all become gamblers: betting our lives he doesn't exist. This ties to atheism. Atheists insist there's no God and therefore no Satan. If only they could see they're being manipulated by Satan out of their honest/good desire to have autonomy and free thinking .. You see how he works? Take something beautiful and twist it to his advantage.
i've written an article condemning gagamatch. But.. i've stayed on the network for one reason alone: to attempt to find ladies who are willing to interact with me genuinely like Kay, one of only two girls i met there who have been 'real' with me.. Kay proclaimed once: “You've changed my life Sam.” What sweeter/better complement is there? Even she herself recognized she 'don't belong there'. Another more recent contact is Hailey. From my take on her QQ pics, she's genuine .. And finally last night, i got a letter from an unbelievably beautiful girl: sansan: “Ha ha, hello Sam, so happy to get your message, I'm sorry, it's only reply, I seldom landing here, because I'm not a formal member, I'm from yesterday after the decision here every day, and you? Are you?” But when i tried to visit her profile, all i got was this system message: “The user you visited does not exist!”. Draconian. Satan uses our natural desires for love and intimacy to make money for social network owners. Then when we attempt to find something meaningful or are on the verge of connecting in meaningful ways, he cleverly cuts the relationship.
Work and school are domains we can find enriching relationships and experiences. But there's always jealousy, envy, and competition here. Of course, academic competition is standard and acceptable but.. When it turns 'bloody' or petty or vengeful or spiteful, it becomes sin. Many people meet their future spouse at university. It's a great place to socialize and meet new friends (and gain new insights on life). But.. When we focus on appearances, winning, and getting the best grade at all costs, we lose. Academic life and work become twisted.. When you focus on productivity above all else, you lose; Satan wins. So Satan wins by taking something healthy and normal: education and accomplishing things – and – twisting them beyond recognition .. i've been black-balled by several companies because i have integrity and cannot be exploited. i simply refuse. This ends up being a Satanic 'boxing match' between me and corporate administrators who typically misunderstand my motivations. See how clever he is? He takes the natural desire of administrators and twists them against me: a loyal, devoted, and honest worker. i have no problem 'giving my heart and soul' to a company .. as long as that company treats me with true respect. That's my bottom line. And so yet again Satan wins from our natural desires and principles by twisting them against ourselves.
There's only two domains he cannot gain ground: social awareness and personal interactions. You reading this article is the former.. And you'd have to meet me face-to-face to appreciate the latter.. As i've said before: “you either hate me or love me” .. The lukewarm I spit out of My mouth.
The God in me connects with the God in you: look out for that old Devil; he'll trick you at every turn.
sam iam, 2012/FEB/02