Truemors
I am not always optimistic. Sometimes there is a dead feeling coming
from my deep heart, it tells me everything is meaningless for me. Work
for what? Live for what? Not sure. It seems that life is just about
sleep, work and eat food, very tedious. At such time, I am full of
despair, and don’t want to do anything. Just want to sleep to die. How
awful the life is!
But the problem is that I can’t lose my life now, I have promised
myself not to die until I am 75 years old. So I need to make my life
meaningful and useful. I am trying my best. In some sense, I think this
feeling is not bad for me, you know, it makes me know more about life
and experience more in my heart. What’s more, I have overcome the
feeling of death. This is really good for me. I think I will love my
life more in the future.
The feeling of death visits me once every month. I hope I won’t be destroyed by it.
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Most RecentMost Recommended Comments (6)
at 08:21 on January 5th, 2008
Maybe you feel that way because everything is, in fact, meaningless.
You just do whatever you want, there's no meaning to life.
at 21:30 on July 16th, 2008
I agree with bugmenot ,
You just do whatever you want, there's no meaningless to life.
You should think some happy and love.
at 03:09 on January 30th, 2009
Man is created, means of creation are unknown. Man is given the ability to look into a mirror and realize that he is in fact… alive. We fear the unknown, but have an indescribable, and undeniable desire, no, a need to understand the unknown. We are compelled to explore that which we do not know. It is part of that which makes us human… so to a creature that is compelled to fear and yet to be drawn to the unknown.. what is IRRESISTABLE .. ill tell you.. death.. our origin. The questions that cannot be answered. The perfect question for a creature that is self aware and certain of only its own existence while only preserving others interacting with its existence.. religion can be expected to form under these circumstances… so it is, that life is simply and quite poetically just.. meaninglessness … while at the same time being the meaning its self… we search for answers and a purpose.. when it is the search, the desire to know, that is the meaning.. but in the end. It is all simply… meaningless.
at 12:15 on March 24th, 2009
yes, but if we let it out in tears, feel the meaningless in an extreme way, it somehow lightens our hearts. I felt so sad at what you felt, and how it reflected what I feel, I am still crying. It will all make sense if we stop looking for the meaning. Live in the moment like my dear birds. They have nothing but life. They do nothing, and yet are so joyful and full of humour. They don't care about why, they don't care about how long, they don't care about if they look strange scratching their heads. I love my birds. They love the moment they are in.
at 16:23 on March 24th, 2009
Yeah, you are quite right, now I think the meaning of life a different way, and I feel everything is quite clear. Maybe I have found a way out. Thanks!
at 14:33 on July 9th, 2009
awww that is beautiful wow soo very well said about the birds living in the moment....god bless you!!!!!!!!! what you just said touched me deeply...