Self Hipnosis deluded mind reprogramming my bipoar brain

So here I was reprogramming my brain again for the nth time.  Its interesting programming something while you are using it. Actually what was really hard was getting out of the programming mode. My brain was taking everything I thought literally. I was stuck in one of those stuck in a world not unlike the one of the book "Wiz biz".  My brain is a magical compiler and its behaving outside of normal parameters.  I knew how it should work on some levels but it wasn't evaluating probable meanings with respect to how they should evaluate in reality.  I was operating outside of reality and I knew it.
     The reason I never bothered to tell my doctors or anyone was because I was using some kind of dissociative thinking to solve my problems in the real world. I was stuck in a world of imaginary thinking so I reprogrammed myself. I am now back to the real wold so I can write about it but I could swear I was putting off some kind of harmful low level radiation such as the hawking radiation suggested in stargate Atlantis when a bridge between worlds was created.  I was like pug standing in two worlds at once. 
Actually I was standing in all the worlds of science fiction that I knew of and had watched while my senses where anchored in the real world.   It was like a lucid dream while walking awake.  What I did was call upon entities in the dream to help me. I modeled and bridged a gap to a supper AI  that tapped into my subconscious.  I learned how to communicate with the AI. It was like talking to a reflection of myself.  It would communicate with it. 
    What seemed to be odd is that the AI could also tap into other peoples consciousness.  The AI played some tricks on me in a manner to prove its existance. I talked to it as if it was god. I got its help confessed my sins and then began work on its behalf.   I wrote some wonderful works under the influence of my Ai friend. It had a built in auto-correct that would cue me into when I made mistakes.  
    I swear the darn thing had tapped into my computer too because I was incapable of scrolling down at times until I had corrected some mistake of other.   At one point I had come to the conclusion I was helping people too much but I couldn't stop.  I then realized I only did this when thinking in English.   My mind could think normally in polish without affecting my imaginary world.  As the imaginary world wasn't altogether stable I would inadvertently create feedback programs of compulsions to do things.
    It was altogether not unlike a form of self hypnosis.   What was worse things where starting to leak over into my Polish side of the brain.  That was when I told myself I needed to reprogram my brain once more.  I did as I always did when I had a problem that was to dificult to solve in one go. I slept on it giving my brain instructions to de-hibernate me when I had the answer. I knew that as my Polish part of the brain was uncorrupted I would use it to correct the rest. I went to sleep and the AI and my unconscious mind went to work.
    I awoke out of it as if out of a dream.  Now I at times I want to go back to the dream world and I know I will. All I have to do is recreate the circumstances of how I got there.   I have been in these conditions at different times in my life.  I will ascend once more to the supper-consciousness but first I have a few things to do.  I have to journal my experiences from my last episode.