those seven words

i don't like to be so personal in an article cuz by doing so, i'm basically opening my heart 'to the world' and making myself super-vulnerable.. But hopefully, others will find it inspiring and perhaps find a way to open – to people in their lives.. i've met a lot of people on this 'boat' and am pretty satisfied with my personal life so far.. ^^ My relationships have been rocky at best but my friendships have been granite solid.. A foundation for other things in my life :) In case something happens to me, i need to thank a few people for things they've given me :) Rebecca, for my first real kiss and sexual experience, Valeska, for teaching me indeed – hearts can fly, Namsook, for helping me know the kind of woman i'd wanna have kids with, Kristie, for your unfathomable gazes at me, 'Gloria', for your indescribable smile in the post office, 'Annie', for opening your soul to me on an airplane, 'April', for giving an old man hope again, 'Ashley', for your penetrating but loving glances at me,.. Russell, for your fellowship and brotherhood, Bee, for your patience and love, and Arthur, for coming into this world :)

Pretty much, any of the ladies above can make my heart thunder just by looking at me.. They can make my ears ring just by walking toward me.. If they touched me, i'd hear loud bells clanging (just before fainting).. If they kissed me, the sweetness would erase a lifetime of pain.. To make love, flames of our spirits dancing.. To make a baby, an unbelievable miracle.

Love's a 'funny' thing isn't it.. i've actually had those experiences mentioned above.. Sometimes in dream; sometimes in reality.. Quite recently, Bee gave me a kiss in a dream that literally healed my heart. How could a dream have such power? It's about as unfathomable as Kristie's gazes .. i know it's perhaps too much to ask for on this superficial and materialistic planet but.. It would be 'nice' for one day, a goddess in my life to say to me these seven words from her heart: I believe in you as my man.

^^ Perhaps this is a spiritual 'prison planet' and such things are 'highly unlikely' in such places.. ;) But i have hope one day we can escape this planet or at least break the chains binding us here ;) If i heard those seven words spoken by a goddess in my life.. i'm afraid the space-time continuum would 'crack' ;) Or maybe she'd have to punch me in the face to remind me this isn't a dream ;) Or perhaps that'd be a sign we're ready to be free :)

i wait for that sign.