Are you lacking Self-Discipline?

man does not live until he begins to discipline himself;

he merely exists. Like an animal he gratifies his desires

and pursues his inclinations just where they may lead him.

He is happy as a beast is happy, because he is not conscious

of what he is depriving himself; he suffers as the beast

suffers, because he does not know the way out of suffering.

He does not intelligently reflect upon life, and lives in a

series of sensations, longings, and confused memories which

are unrelated to any central idea or principle. A man whose

inner life is so ungoverned and chaotic must necessarily

manifest this confusion in the visible conditions of his

outer life in the world