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Kalinganagar: The Bermuda Triangle In India
The Wikipedia states that Kalinga was an early kingdom in central-eastern India, which was a rich and fertile land, and was the scene of the bloody Kalinga War fought by the Maurya Emperor Ashoka the Great of Magadha circa 265 BCE. Several centuries, in a northern part of Orissa in the district of Jajpur, the original description of Kalinga stands true. Here is a vast land demarcated as Kalinganagar, which is fertile enough, and now, is equally blood-stained. There is a certain Fascist regime here, and through discreet means, the red earth here is further rendered a darker shade.
Getting to Kalinganagar is no easy feat. When I decided to go to Kalinganagar - the reasons which I will enumerate later - I was forewarned that it is not the place to go. 'Another Dantewada', I could hear my own voice. Yet, I knew I had to go there. There were random news of people being killed, roads being blocked and farmers laying down their lives for the love of land. There was news that development was being offered to the tribals living there, yet they were not ready to accept it. There was news that they were being offered 'white-collared' jobs and yet they were not ready for them. Every bit of news was scattered, and perhaps that's the reason why it got me intrigued.
Thanks to a local journalist RR who has managed to stay untouched by the authorities, I found myself as his pillion rider into Kalinganagar, from Jajpur Road. “You cannot go there alone right now. Since May 28, 2010, 25 platoons of police accompanied the goons who came with tractors and bulldozers to level people’s farmlands. These farmlands belong to those people who have been resisting the forceful acquisition of land by Tata to set up its plant there,” I am told on my way, as hot winds slap my face and not a tree is to be seen. Thick grey fumes are flushed into the blue sky, making the green hills in the distant a mirage. Tata had acquired 3,500 acres of land, but thanks to the deal of another steel company gone wrong, another 1,500 acres of land are now in the hands of Tata.
A New Bermuda ‘Square’
It hasn’t been an easy ride for RR either – there are just about two journalists who want to talk about the tribals, and not merely talk of development, as etched out by the government. The majority of the media would go into the villages, talk to the people and hear them ‘rant’ about their loss of land and livelihood, but would back to their plush air-conditioned offices and write about the ‘savagery’ of the tribals, and the philanthropy of companies like Tata which wants to ‘develop’ them. RR thus didn’t have to explain why going with him was essential – the wrath of the villagers was palpable. I didn’t have to explain to him why I decided to step in there – the ‘truth’ as told by the mainstream media and its journalists on a comfortable payroll was palpable.
Most of rural India is similar in its landscape. The huge canopy of trees, clean air, green and blue houses with thatched roofs, women bathing in groups near a hand-pump, children with skinny limbs but huge bellies playing the game of chasing a bicycle tyre, men sitting under a tree and engaged in animated conversations or listening to the transistor, cows mooing, dogs befriending the cats, cocks and hens scampering through the tiny lanes – this is rural India. The similarity goes beyond this in Central India – here the people are trying hard to protect their lands from the corporate zealots who romance with the state governments, and the khaki-wearing job is all about terrorizing the villagers to surrender their lives and lands for the ‘development’ of the nation. Only, the definition and realm of ‘development’ is undefined, and its real meaning is conspicuously chosen to be unaddressed. At the same time, during each of my sojourns, I am witness to a beautiful sight of childhood innocence – any vehicle which has a motor is chased down the road with squealing delight by the sudden appearance of several children.
However, as our bike made way through the villages in Kalinganagar, this was replaced by something else which initiated my understanding of the politics in place here – three children, upon seeing our bike, ran into their courtyards and hid themselves behind a tree. A fourth one, who wasn’t quick enough to run past, tried to squeeze herself amid the latticework of the bamboo boundary. Her eyes were filled with unfathomable terror. Later I learnt that the entire village would sleep in the open fields even in the winter to ward off the goons and cops who would attack them in the dark hour of the night.
I am taken around the villages before I settle in Chandia village of Dhangadi block, at the residence of Rabi Jarika – a short man in his thirties with a calm demeanour, yet a voice strong enough to stir even an octogenarian to proclaim that it is worth fighting against the might of the corporates. Rabi had completed his Masters in Sociology, but the doom spelled down upon his village brought him back to unite the people. He is instrumental is giving a voice to the resistance, in the name of Bisthapan Birodhi Jan Manch (BBJM), which primarily is fighting against the land acquisition by the self-proclaimed lord of Kalinganagar, Tata. Despite his busy schedule in getting people to stay motivated to fight this battle, while their land was being leveled with sand and metal scraps, he begins to narrate the history and other nuances of Kalinganagar.
Games corporates and governments play
I begin by asking Rabi to draw me a rough map of Kalinganagar for my convenience. But he laughs:
“I cannot draw a map because the area is forever a changing space. In 1992, the Biju Patnaik government sanctioned Sukhinda and Dhangadi blocks of Jajpur, as an industrial complex. As of today, Sukhinda comprises 24 Panchayats, while the number is 21 in Dhangadi. Yet, the area seems to be expanding. Every month, there is a new signboard in the far corners, which says, 'Welcome to Kalinganagar'. This means that more and more villages will fall under this complex; more land has been marked to be grabbed, and more people will be robbed of their livelihood. There are 11 steel plants in all, and three more including Tata, will be coming up soon.
Just about 15 per cent of the people residing in Kalinganagar have accepted to part with their land. And this has been possible through a variety of ways – some of them were coerced; some were lured into consuming expensive foreign liquor, while some others were promised jobs. It has been the lure of instant cash. However, those who have parted ways with the village are sadly our enemies today. Tata has successfully employed the ‘divide and rule’ policy of the British. The government is an ally to the corporates in throwing us out from here, and they don’t want the resistance to spread. That’s also why they are preventing the intellectuals in the cities from coming here.
The other pressure tactic used is restricting people from moving about freely. This is done to break their morale. For instance, if you want to go out for Kalinganagar from here, the nearest main road is 3kms away. From our house, that would be where the state’s government’s own Nilachal steel plant is set up. But right now as we talk, you just cannot go there. There are cops and goons employed by Tata. These goons are of two types – they are the ones who gave their land to Tata, accepted their ‘rehabilitation; package but are living in the shoddy transit camps. They are now given Rs 500 each day to terrorise their own erstwhile neighbours and making them bow down to Tata. The other set of goons are villagers from outside Kalinganagar. It need not be elaborated that these men are drunk and misbehave with anyone. And the cops would pick you if you manage to come under their scanner on the road – you will be charged on flimsy grounds, right from waging war against the state, to murder. (Rabi’s elder brother was similarly arrested in February 2010.)
One of the reasons why the government is able to terrorise the people is because they are uneducated. But most importantly, it is also because they have no land pattas. This land was ruled by Sukhinda Raja and he had handed out land pattas in 1922, and these were called ‘Raja pattas’. However, the process was no complete, and it was understood that post-Independence, those who hadn’t received the pattas would get it. But that never happened, and this is why the government claims that our land is their land. Now, the official numbers state that Kalinganagar area constitutes 45 per cent tribals. But then this is also reserved area; so going by the latter ‘fact’, the number of tribals here should be at least 60 per cent.
Strangely, majority of Kalinganagar are very fertile, as against the rest of Orissa which is quite arid. And some tribals here can be defined as ‘developed’. So they are very much content with what they have – which is an average of five acres of land by every family. Tata initially offered Rs 25,000 per acre but later went on adding more, such that today their offer stands at Rs 60,000 per acre. However, according to our own calculations which is done is accordance to a measure called ‘goonth’, one goonth is valued at a minimum of Rs 1.5 lakh. And guess what does that mean to be the price of every acre? Twenty-five goonths make one acre! Now do your math!
Since May 28 this year, the farmlands in the villages of Ambogadia, Bellahori, Kanklajhor, Champakoyla, Bamiagotha, Gobarghati, Kolamatia, Bandhargadia, Gadhpur, Baidugudi, Orasahi, Kharigatia, Baligot, Chandia, and parts of Dhurpathar and Bargadia have been leveled. Initially, people went running to protest, but the fear of bullets cannot be negated. Other than rubber bullets, they are also using steel bullets, which we called ‘charra’. These are meant to be just a tool to terrorise, but their use can prove fatal too. They come with bulldozers, level the land, pile up black sand, and scatter generous amounts of metal scrap. And we have nobody to go to, to seek redressal. There couldn’t have been a better Fascist regime than what we are subject to. The government watches on and enjoys this cock fight as our own brothers are bribed to fight against us.”
I soak in all the information from this man of the Hoo tribe, which regards trees, land, water, air as their God. It is a unique struggle to safeguard their God, but often, they seem to feel deprived of the blessings of The One. “Why are we adivasis seen as the enemy? Don’t we breathe the same air? The government makes no qualms about initiating dialogues with the warring Pakistan or China, yet, when it comes to its own people, it doesn’t think twice before running us down,” Rabi adds with a harried smile. I try to change the topic and ask him about three buildings near his house, which resemble schools, thanks to the painted pictures of Mahatma Gandhi, Bhagat Singh and Atal Bihari Vajpayee. “Even nature doesn’t support us! It was a good school as teachers were visiting regularly but one fine day a strong gust of wind blew off its roof. Now even animals don’t use it as shed.” We laugh.
The tables now turn and Rabi asks me why I was there alone, and whether I represented any mainstream media organization. He was hoping for a positive reply, assuming that my words would help take their voice out into India Shining. My negative reply explains the functioning of the fourth estate of a democracy, which loves its ad revenue more than the ‘truth’.
Tears and hope
After a lunch of coarse rice and dal, we go around the village. I am accompanied by Dabar Kalundia, a man ‘most-wanted’ according to the local media, but someone who is contacted by the development officers to get him to convince his village folk to sell their land. We walk past a patch of land which is the sight for two houses – one intact, with an old lady working in the courtyard; the other in rubble. I ask Dabar why the stark dichotomy? “The one whose house is intact doesn’t want to move away from here. The one whose house is in rubble had accepted the rehab package by Tata four years ago. It is only recently that the cops came with the owners of the house – who posed themselves as goons to terrorise us – and bulldozed the house right before their eyes. They are doing this with almost all houses of those who had joined the other side,” he explained.
We then enter the house of late Aati Jamunda, who lost his life in a firing that took place on January 2, 2006. That day, around 10 am, the police began firing from several kilometers away, and 12 people lost their lives instantly. Three others later succumbed to their injuries. I meet Aati’s father Upin, and mother Haro. It is early evening and Haro is sifting the rice, while Aati’s daughter sits by her. Aati was 35 and didn’t have a job – he worked all day on the field. In 2005, he lost his younger brother, who was a teacher, to brain malaria. “He was ill for three days. Before we could figure out about which health clinic we should go to – since the nearest one is 10 kms away and there are no facilities at all, he died. A year later, we lost Aati,” said Upin, after a contemptuous look towards me. Dabar later explained that they spoke in Hoo in my presence – “So many journalists have come and gone. They ask the same questions, but they go back and write that my son was a goon, who would have been reformed by Tata’s developmental plans. I lost my son, but I am still angry.”
I request the senior Jamunda if I could take a look at a photograph of Aati. He searches all around in their tiny hut but couldn’t find it. Meanwhile, I try to strike a conversation with Aati’s petite mother in Hindi, and Dabar does the job of the translator. “In a bid to protect my land and parampara (culture), I have lost my son. I don’t have the skills or energy to work in a factory, but I can still work on my field, because I would do it with love. I still have the power within myself to fight one. I am ready to give my life, as well as take life,” said the 55-year-old woman.
Slowly, Upin narrated the chain of events on that fateful day. “Aati was on the field when he heard that the cops had come in. He rushed out to see what had happened. We next learnt that he was shot on his chest. They took his body away instantly.” Dabar added, “We wrote a letter to the CM demanding that the five bodies which were taken away be returned. Three days later, we were handed Aati’s decomposed body but his palms were missing. We don’t even know if any post mortem was done. When we asked why the hands were chopped, the authorities said that it was for identification. We buried his body according to the traditional rites. They returned ‘his’ hands six months later, but how would we know if those were his hands?”
With a heavy heart and a head bowed, we walked ahead. We were stopped by a middle-aged lady who called out to Dabar. Observing her colourful house, I said to Dabar, “They must be rich.” He laughed and whispered, “Wait until you hear their story.”
We enter their large courtyard and about 10 children surround me, upon seeing me wielding the camera. They were children who were unsure of their future, yet were oblivious to the gloom that enveloped the household. I learnt that the lady who beckoned was the mother of Jogendra Jamunda, who was arrested on August 27, 2009. He was an active leader of BBJM in the village. Jogendra’s young wife Pini comes to greet us, with a toddler in her arm, who was born just three months ago. Her two children look on as we talk. “He had gone to play football in another village. Later all the men who were playing returned, except for my husband and two others. We learnt that they had been arrested. The other two men were let out on bail the next day, but my husband has not been so fortunate,” Pini says in broken Hindi.
Her mother-in-law added, “Much before he was arrested, he was once taking me to the haat (weekly market) in Duburi on his bike. We were just 100 metres away from the Kalinganagar police station when he was shot on his back by goons. It was a crowded area, and so we managed to take care of him, but he still has the bullet lodged in his back.” I ask them about the charges on which he is under arrest. “Oh there are so many!” his mother says, adding, “Everything from dacoity, murder, waging war against the state to being a Maoist – my son seems to have done everything!” A dry laughter follows. She holds my hand as we leave and says, “There is nothing much to say, you know. We just keep on hoping that we will win and save our land. And that Jogendra will be released. We can only hope that God will hear us.”


Most RecentMost Recommended Comments (14)
at 04:15 on July 26th, 2010
"Our State has many poor wage labourers who works in others land and do not have job most of the time. I have seen my neighbours in village Chandia live in thatched huts with their entire family. Everytime the cyclones came they came together to pull the leaves of the roof so that they did not lose the shelter they had. Children could not eat and suffered from illness all the time. In such a condition, the villagers of Chandia were told that a new and big steel plant that would come up in Jajpur, and for this they would have to move to some other place. Honestly, they did not worry that much. They were already living in a very poor condition and hoped that The Tata Company project will make things better for all of them. Almost all of our neighbours accepted the kind rehabilitation package that was given. They are thankful that today each family is able to have a big own stable home and other facilities that they could not even dream of earlier. Tata Steel Parivar members are all given other means of earning so that they have a regular and good source of income. But as we were directly involved, we know that some of the people who had accepted the land compensation at that time, are today creating problems and protesting against industrialisation. It is surprising. But may be they want more private gain. So why should they bother about the benefits that poor people are actually receiving? It is a fact that the President of the BBJM Chakradhar Haibru (Sr) have accepted the rehabilitation package and condemned the other self-centered leaders of the Mancha. Other senior leaders of BBJM like that of Chakradhar Haibru (Jr), Madan Kaludia and many others have left the mancha and accepted the rehabilitation package.It is a fact that more than 90% of the local and periphery tribal population want the Tata Project to start as they have already seen how they gain from good rehabilitation and resttlement scheme and community development programs with focus on earning, health, education and other advantages. But what can we do if our innocent friends are beaten up and tortured when they want to approach the Tata team and co-operate in the project? We know that our state will not be poor any more when many industries come, but some people are unnecessarily blocking the way to development. It so happened that when Balema Gaipai, mother of Birasingh Gaipai, went to the village to get some of her things, she was stoned by ‘goonda’s of Gobarghati village and not allowed to come back. She was not well and died on 5th April 2010. Members of Bisthapana Birodhi Jan Manch members are torturing innocent tribals in the name of protection. The BBJM has active support from extreme left wing parties in the Kalinganagar issue. So how will my people ever come out of this label called ‘backward’? I have been able to come out of the shadows myself and I want others to benefit. Now people have every facility in the rehabilitation camp and children go to school regularly. They have a good income and good living conditions. It is my appeal to everybody to see behind the real intentions of BBJM. We should look at all the good things that Tata Company has brought to the people and move towards a NEW future."
at 09:56 on July 26th, 2010
If you have managed to come out of the 'shadows' and you want others to benefit, why didn't I meet you when I was there? You should have been the first person to welcome me!
The fact that you are able to mail in pristine English while your own people languish behind - is this your definition of 'benefit'? What if I decide your fate - would you like that? Similarly, who is Tata to decide whether a family should do farming or accept their rehab package? Never once did one tribal say that he was 'backward' - they are much self-sufficient than the colour you paint of your own people. All they want of a govt. is medical aid and educations. None of it is given by Tata.
I guess you would want your future to be decided for yourself, and not some outsider. That's exactly what your own people want too - leave them alone!
at 11:19 on July 27th, 2010
If somebody is thankful to a corporate and if he acknowledging the same, what's the problem in it?Everybody has the equal right to express their viewpoints. Right?Why r u so hard pressed to talk against them and why u want local tribals to left alone?
at 12:29 on July 27th, 2010
Why do you want to stay blind to the fact that the corporates that you are in love with are killing people for their profits? Not even a needle will be made for these people from the steel plants, for which their land is being grabbed.
I can't talk sense into you really, if you have decided to stay blind and numb.
at 01:51 on July 28th, 2010
Normal 0 If you ever faced the threat of life for just wanting your own people to take their own decision you would know why it is not possible for some of us to approach our own people. You are lucky but your ‘friend’ who gave you a ride would not agree to give me a lift in any way. Instead they would block the way and possibly even beat me up. Do you know for what? Because they know that I know the truth and I will talk about the benefits that they will actually get. I can understand that your ‘guide’ will not take you to the schools and the medical camps that people attend in the rehabilitation colonies. Do you know that some of the people who want to relocate are forced to sleep in the open in the fear that they will be attacked by your friends at night because they have not obeyed their orders? And it is not fair that while you are pointing out one person’s ability to mail in ‘pristine english’ in a bad light, you are praising another for using language that can move an ‘octogenarian’. Is it just because a Masters in Sociology can impress you more than a tribal who has just learnt a language through long effort?
at 02:02 on July 28th, 2010
I have faced threat to my life, and have never deterred from doing what needs to be done. I rather work that sit and write comments on other people's blogs, critiquing them.
I too could have gotten into trouble - but guess you wouldn't know for you haven't even ventured out to do something. You prefer to sit and type your life out with the language you learnt "through long effort". Isn't it sad that you were kind of forced to learn this language to be emancipated, and yet when your own brothers are chained, you talk ill about them? Keep doing that. Honestly, I don't know why am I wasting my time trying to talk sense to you.
at 04:58 on July 28th, 2010
We in Kalinganagar are very much surprised with Priyanka's reaction. It seems she wants the world belive only her part of the story in Kalinganagar. Let the world know the facts on Kalinganagar. Some of them are given below:- 1. During the Birodhi Mancha's ( friends of Priyanka) 18 months road blockade in Kalinganagar more than 50 tribals died as they were stopped from going to Hospital by the supporters of Birodhi Mancha. Finally due to these deaths , the High Court of Orissa ordered the lifting of road blockade by the Birdohi Mancha. 2. Rabi Jarika ( the leader of Birodhi Mancha) has been ordered against by the High Court of Orissa for molesting a tribal lady ( who wanted to get rehabilitated) in the Open Market in Kalinganagar. 3. Jogen Jamuda, Dabar Kaludia, Rajendra Kaludia and many others have arrest warrents pending against them ordered by High Court in murder / attempt to murder and molestation cases of 8 to 10 fellow tribals when they accpted the rehabilitation package 4. The tribal ladies of Kalinganagar are being used by some forces friendly to Priyanka's freinds for entertaining people like Janashakti leaders Anna Reddy who was arrested from Kalinganagar. The above perfectly describes the state of affairs of the friends of Priyanka. We in Kalinganagar want development and for that we have recived compensation for our land about 15 years back. Birodhi Mancha in Kalinganagar only represents 2% of the tribal populace.
at 05:10 on July 28th, 2010
I would like to see the documents of all of the above.
And as the previous person (who has got another person to write on his behalf) knew about all my movement there and the people I had met there, why didn't he come and meet me while I was there? Why didn't he bring before me the victim of molestation?
at 06:37 on July 28th, 2010
I congratulate Priyanka Borpujari for bringing the part of reality to light. The opposition is bound to come if you are effective. And you have so much challenge to your version already. This shows that you are highly effective and ruffled the feathers of the corporates very effectively. Well done! It is pointless to run after those trying to prove you wrong. You have done your duty of bringing a perspective hitherto silenced on ground. People have right to post their comments and promote further discussion in a forum like this.
at 23:21 on July 28th, 2010
Dear Priyanka,I have followed your blog, and some of your writing that appeared in the Hardnews magazine.Don't despair at the mainstream media's apathy, or antipathy, and the people trying to run down dissenting voices. The point I am trying to make is: take heart from the fact that so many people are trying to run you down; it only means that the issue/ essay is reaching an audience where it makes an impact. Why else would a filmmaker's (Surya Shankar Dash) youtube account be hacked an all videos critical of Vedanta deleted a day before the Vedanta AGM, and journalists' entries be panned? For those of us who continue to speak in dissenting voices, it is imperative to keep our feet on the ground, and keep making the noises.Keep your spirits high, and take care.
at 02:02 on July 29th, 2010
Do we always have to be so typical? Survey after survey, carried out by varied neutral agencies over the years have confirmed that as far as living conditions of people are concerned, rural Orissa has the dubious fame of retaining the bottom slot. The Government of India’s National Sample Survey Organization (NSSO) in a report has released the well-being index of India. This report has mentioned that six districts of Orissa are in the list of worst twenty districts of India. And yet, in blog after well-written blog, we have proof that people have a fixation on wrongfully targeting the only means of turning around the situation for Orissa – responsible industrialization. It is heart wrenching to find so many people being tortured and subdued by selfish groups that nurture motives of private gain simply because they have chosen to change the direction of their own lives. If the leaders of BBJM have accepted the land compensation themselves, they must have been in favour of industrialization at that time. Now why this sudden shift in their outlook? Or may be it is not so sudden at all. It seems that all along, they wanted to create an issue that would become a constant source of private income for them. It is evident that leaders and members of these agitating groups receive funds from several external sources on a continuous basis and even have trade dealings with them. But in order to do so, they need to keep the agitation in Kalinganagar alive, even if they have to victimize the innocent tribals to suit their purpose. The way is pretty simple. They kill and loot and lay the blame on corporates who are trying their best to bring development to the area. Isn’t it an irony that the self-proclaimed pro-tribal groups like BBJM say that they are guarding the cause of the poor while they themselves stand in the way of their social and economic advancement? After all, it is an obvious fact that people in the rural-tribal districts of Orissa had hit rock-bottom much before the industrial turn-around was conceived. So why should these people not be allowed to take the opportunity at the flood when it has come? BBJM will not take care of their livelihood, education, healthcare or empowerment. It is clear from their activities that they also have a problem if a corporate house takes the responsibility. We know why. But some people seem to unfairly glorify their destructive activism after a stray prejudiced trip.
at 04:48 on July 30th, 2010
Madam, Next time you are in Kalinganagar ask for me to any of your friends. I will produce the proof. Yet another BBJM ( your friends) tribal atrocity happened yesterday. Your friends followers hacked a tribal women Raimani Deogam with farsas and arrows. She is struggling for her life in Hospital. How much more our tribal blood will flow for your friends democratic agitation ?
at 10:06 on July 30th, 2010
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It is evident that pro-corporate truths would not make good ‘stories’ in journalism. But what is the point of accusing others of being ‘blind’ when you are proud of your own jaundiced vision.
at 19:41 on July 30th, 2010
Above post got distorted hence - Dissent for the sake of dissent is a favourite hobby for some people. They think they have the exclusive right to voice an opinion. So much so that they don’t listen. I am sure that they know about the recent order of Orissa High Court in WP(C) Nos 9437 and 9352 that has completely exposed the false allegations of Bistapana Birodhi Jana Mancha (BBJM) and its Civil Society supporters. Some of the observations of the Hon’ble Orissa High Court are given below –
It is evident that pro-corporate truths would not make good ‘stories’ in journalism. But what is the point of accusing others of being ‘blind’ when you are proud of your own jaundiced vision.