the problem is ego

The more i ponder the OM, realistic particle scheme, universal equations, and conventional obstinacy, the more i realize it's rooted in ego .. Every time i was attacked in the past (by friends and by schoolmates), it was always rooted in ego attacks: "Sam, you think you're so smart to invent an alternative!" or "Sam, you must have a HUGE ego to think you can develop a realistic alternative!" The personal attacks are fresh in my mind as if they were done yesterday.

i don't know what to say except for two facts: i've spent the last 40 years making Humility a discipline and i've prayed consistently for inspiration. She's consistently Delivered. So if you want to blame someone, blame God and my prayers.. Why do you think i called it the 'iam conjecture'? To give God credit. Why do i call it Iam space? To give God credit .. i wrote to Markus Lazar about divine inspiration and the Higgs. If he doesn't take my advice, that's his choice; we all have a choice: to believe or ignore .. i've presented a scientific proof God exists. You have basically three choices: ignore it as fantasy, choose to accept its validity, or prove me wrong. What you would have to do to prove me wrong is this:
1. prove the Standard Model is the correct way of looking at reality
2. or prove my perspective is wrong
Since 1 is extremely difficult, 2 is much easier. i've presented two tests which can do this:
pump lasers near nuclear reactors; pump lasers near the Sun
attempt to determine the exact nature of bare charge

SM adherents can equivocate and pretend to embrace a variable alpha which would delay the argument for a century or two.. But as i stated before: this is a Satanic deception. Satan refuses to allow us to prove God exists and will fight to the death for it. i suggest we make this the central issue for 2012: force a spiritual war in 2012.

The basic difference between the SM and OM is this:
SM: e.p.s are probability waves interacting via virtual bosons
OM: e.p.s are designed particles to purposefully allow emergence of life and us

My 'bottom line' / point is the question: which view of reality has more inherent meaning? The Standard Model and its cosmology encourages a universe devoid of God and meaning: all is chaos and randomness. We can find meaning in this view but usually is based on human ego .. The other view, the one where God designed protons and electrons so that life and humanity would arise - basically to keep Her company (for companionship), .. doesn't that view have a 'little bit' more inherent meaning? All it's really asking us to acknowledge is one thing: after God created Lucifer to keep Her company and he rejected Her, She created us. Can you blame Her? Satan's the ultimate Asshole! Only a Supreme Asshole would reject Her. Only a Supreme Asshole would inspire and promulgate a model which encourages us to ignore God. And only human beings would be so stupid and arrogant to follow him .. How many times do i have to beg you: please wake up; please acknowledge Her; please Respect Her - or prove me wrong.

https://www.msu.edu/~micheal/WfM-cover.pdf
https://www.msu.edu/~micheal/WfM.pdf
https://www.msu.edu/~micheal/fund-eqs.pdf