Web worship: Confess your sins to a vicar on the internet

I must confess, my life is a total cluster-fuck. I'm sick of the mind games some people put me through, tired of feeling misunderstood, frustrated to realize that my efforts to better myself are in vein, and have recently completed a stage of  "radical acceptance", an acceptance that life has no rhyme and reason and that few things in life are accurately interpreted at face value. Although I possess a spiritual strength and resiliance that is both rare and amazing; This alone will not carry me through the many storms of my life. True happiness has eluded me almost my entire life. I feel like I'm one of those people whos' lives' just wasn't meant to work out. In spite of my optimism, life has dealt me blow after blow after blow. Then when I think I'm hitting a smooth patch, another cluster of random yet perfectly coreographed fuck up's comes barrelling down the highway of life straight for the avenue of my bizarre and somewhat disturbed existance. Hope is a beatiful thing. Optimism and Courage are equally as beautiful. The one thing on this earth who's beauty trumps that of the three virtues aforementioned, are the person's that genuinely believe any of these three will actually improve your quality of life, in and of themselfs. I used to think that life was more of an unpredictable journy of sorts. I never leant it that much thought though had I needed to state it in writeing thats' what I would have put. Now I think of life more as a biological process. A process just as pre-ordaned, methodical and calculated as any one you would observe in a chemical or scientific laboratory. The two things, in my opinion, that serve to differentiate and obscure our own awareness of the very process in which we are all involved in, would be our lack of capacity to be constantly aware of anyone but ourselfs; And the fact that the result of our own biological, chemical and neurolgical micro processes result in emotion. Not combustion. Not vaporizaton. Not crystallization. Emotion. It is a concept unique to humans and a few other highly developed beings. These emotions serve to distract us and obscure our view that we are as much a part of nature and the very rocks we stand on. Human emotions are unique, variable, specific and unpredictable all at the same time, this gives them an untouted yet profound uniqueness. This is what creates the illusion the our own 'be born, live, die' biological process is actually special enough to be dubbed " The Human Experience". 

"Ignurance is bliss". That is probably the most perfect quote I have or ever will hear. Cherish your ignurance. Basque in your naiievatie. Make the most of your emotions and throw yourself into all of the wonderful and amazing life experiences afforded to you. Enjoy the uniqueness of being human, beause once we are gone, we are gone. Our struggles will be over, our obstacles no longer worth considering, and our pain, dissappeared. The end is only a sad thing if the journey was a good one. If it has, 'lucky' you.